Some people keep talking about it but im not on their side

Some people keep taliking about keep dreaming, but im not on their side.  For me the only thing that we’ve to “keep” is our actions.

Gpp sih keep dreaming unless kamu punya power, punya cukup tenacity untuk terima keadaan when things don’t work out seperti apa yang kamu dream-kan.

But unluckly im not, vulnerability suka datang kalau moment nya begini. And im just start to believe that Im maybe afraid to dreaming, yes, you can judge me for this my werid-ness.

But you know how hurt it is ketika semua khayalanmu tentang mimpimu yang udah kamu  planned suddenly dont happen.

No, im not saying that you cant make your own dream, you’ve to. But im not kinda of those person, Id like to call mine with “The term of start action and keep believing” keep believing that you can, believing dimana kamu juga harus stronger ketika all your expects don’t happen J

Keep-dreaming, why im not on that way because you know babe, semua orang bisa bermimpi, bermimpi bagaimana indahnya mimpi mereka. Tapi only few of us who believe that some dreams, I mean not  all of your dreams will not happen even you’ve done your best. Kinda evil, but it’s the status quo.

And yes, I just got rejected.

♬Tell ‘em what I hoped would be ..impossible 

Another telling the truth and Please buddy dont deny it

“Having friends is like having songs on your phone, when you listen a new song for the first time you may not really pay attention on it but when you listen it again and again you’ll start to like it and listen it all the time.. and suddenly you will leave all the old songs that you used to listen, used to accompany you livin your life and probably never listen those songs anymore till someday you realise something “Oh yaa, I ever had this song and never listen it again, this song isnt really old school I like it, where ive been”” that’s it, that’s how actually we meet new friends, all of us must be ever complained to others about being replaced uh? Without asking ur own self if you ever did or not. To be honest im kinda a person who will leave the old one and get along with the new one. I know it sounds so evil but no one can guarantee about the durability… something that I always remember, having lot of friends is a mini investment for your life even you don’t have to make em as real friends hahaha

Please buddy, don’t deny it, al the least you must be do it once in your life. 

Its on you now, wisely!

Sluuuuuuurp! Yes, sekarang jam 2.23 AM and Im just enjoying eating my noodle, Mie Instant ABC rasa ayam pedas, meski ini sebenernya gak pedes-pedes amat, masih pedes mulut kamu kok… :p

And no, im not listening Thicke’s songs, im watching some shits, something about arguments if Alien does exist, yes totally History Channel boo, idk why this channel TV still show up after all the wrong predictions about the-end-of-this-world-past-over-Maya-2012. Kadang the penyesalan moment saat lo lagi makan banyak banget suddenly lo lihat iklan promo kebugaran atau L-Men dengan model nya cowok-cowok berbadan sixpack, itu berasa u just made a biggest mistake in ur entire life :’) itu lah alasan gue nonton beginian jam segini sambil makan, cause you’ll find it 

Tapi..”who cares?” ini biasanya 2 kata yg keluar saat kepepet harus makan jam segini but after few hours… regret just came :’))

Iyasih, kalau kata selebtwit sih “Jadi kamu lebih peduli sama mata orang lain ketika melihat fisik kamu ketimbang perut kamu yg kelaparan” Oh dude… kadang kalau gue kepepet sih Mie Instant itu gue makan tanpa dimasak.. HaHaHa

Or just say what ppl always tell us “Be Yourself” Hahahaaa this one is funniest one. I remember, I just HAD friend like this who always said about this stuff, “Be urself aja kali sa” but guess what? That someone who always stand for “Be Yourslef” suddenly just gone when u just become urself, and (s)he also suddenly become the one in the first line who judge ya for being different with other, or we can say… weird.

“Society is funny, they always ask for becoming ourselves, but when we’re in, they’re judgin ya” iya, gue juga emang part of that society tapi dilain pihak.. im the person who the society just asked me to be..

Contoh yang ada sih, saat Miley Cyrus (gini bukan sih nulisnya?) tau-tau came up as different person EH, maksud gue muncul dengan gaya yang berbeda… those who always say that bullshit, suddenly show their horns and againts her.

Sometimes people forget, the reason they change or become theirselves is they are the one who live their live, atau mereka loh yang punya hidup mereka dan mereka loh yg punya power to control or make the rules.. atau singkatnya kita loh owner hidup kita masing-masing.

Satu quote yang bener-bener menurut gue sesuai stasus que yang ada yg pernah baca di Path,

“Because the end of the day, all we care about is looks! No one in love with your personality at first sight” J

Yes, its all on you now, but sure its comfort you… jangan maksain diri :D 

Finally, I tell you the truth..

Hi, lets start from Hi. I know its kinda awkward.. ive been gone for so long but honestly I have tons of words that I hope I can write em all but you know.. im just too lazy.

Its 00.57 AM in here, but wait, guess where im! Yes im in BandarLampung babeeee, rhesa in de house and im listening some Robin Thicke’s songs, and if you guys wonder, no im not feeling horny right now, just because I like listening his songs (almost) all the time that doesn’t mean im feeling horny all the time, but yes somehow sometimes his songs make me kinda turn on! HaHaHaHa I know couple years ago used to listen Jazz songs while their make out but nowdays maybe his songs one of the backsound.

2014, I feel something unusual, like im making my new comfort-zone cause I just already uncomfort on my old-zoned. Its sucks, for me once losing comfort-zone its like you’re just losing your virginity. I don’t even know how exatcly it feels, or who is on it. Everything seems changed a lot, Livin alone in Malang for me its like im just rebuild my life and now.. I need somewhere to rebuild it again. I just realized ive no one :) I never put someone or someppl on my priority because learn from past, it just gain a pain. When someday you find out those ppl or some one who are in your priority don’set you as their priority.

To be honest, I don’t believe in “Best-Friend” term. Yes, you can judge me after this.